When I Discovered My Truth,

Before my discovery, I struggled with women. The ones I was trying to have healthy bonds with as friends, the ones I chose as romantic partners, and the ones who just disliked me. I left jobs because of women who disliked me. The discomfort and contrast were too much. It was the same when I left my job in August of 2023. Ignorantly, I chose to put myself at a disadvantage financially again because I refused to be in those types of environments with mean women. Rather than confront, I fled. Rather than stand up to them and call them out, I told others, hoping they would handle them for me and still fled.

I have discovered sometimes the happiness, peace, and joy some women see in you is the issue. They wish they had what you have on the inside in themselves, and that is what causes them to dislike you. Some are jealous. Some are envious. Some are in pain. Some are under dark influences even though they claim to know God. Some are willfully under dark influences, and the more I fight back, the more they come after me. In our Light, however, we know that darkness, dark forces, witchcraft, or anything against God’s children will not win, so in our power, we bind that darkness and send it back to where it came from and keep it moving—but not fleeing.

After my mother died, which was two months after my beatdown, I was taken in by my aunt, my mother’s sister, and I started attending church weekly. I met true friends I still have to this day. When I moved to Tompkins Projects and joined Greater Free Gift Baptist Church (now known as The Cathedral of Greater Free Gift Baptist Church), two life-changing things happened during that time. One, I was filled with the Holy Spirit and felt God’s presence and His hand on me. Two, my Pastor, the late Daniel Webster Batts, and youth Minister at the time, Bishop Whittaker, spoke over my life, and they shared with me my calling and spiritual gifts. I was a teen, but I knew that their words aligned with this feeling that I had—His presence in me that gave me navigational tools to be, see, feel, and do God’s work. Naturally.

I never once considered choosing drugs to heal my heart. Nor violence or anything to hurt others to help or heal me because I was hurt. I knew that no matter what, God would always provide for me and protect me. As a teen, I promised I would ALWAYS choose Him and to SEND ME, I’LL GO! My path has not changed. My promise today has been strengthened. No amount of damage, hurt, disappointment, or loss will change that.